Nothing wasteful about our lives...

It was the day yesterday when I'd moved back to Nagai 5 years ago for the 2nd time after 15 years since 1999. Not only my blog, but also my facebook posts are definitely a good memorandum to recall what was happening to me then, what I was feeling right at the moment of the past. It is very helpful for me to overlook my flows of life. 

I might have already felt that my career as a tour escort is ending sometime soon, but I never dreamed that it was happening after one year. And then later, I was already heading for an unknown place in Hokkaido, and later to Ishigaki, Okinawa. My life had been changed so dramatically, and it was like "No time" to doubt about what was going on. I just had my hands full following the flows. 

I felt that I wasted time and money because I ended up moving out so fast. I could've stayed at my old flat for a bit more time waiting for the next place. Of course, future cannot be foreseen, and I just followed the flow then, and was urged by unknown force of feelings as well.

It happens that what we feel meaningless turns out to be a meaningful event, or process later if we reach a goal somehow. Once we reach it, we start felling relaxed enough to look back the way calmly, and getting the clear meanings of each "Why".

Lately I kinda enjoy myself having the awareness which comes to me all of sudden and out of nowhere. Maybe I've more relaxed, optimistic, or even playful about what is going on in life. Why do we need to be bothered by Unpredictables, and to lose hours for them.

This is exactly the things I feel meaningless.

And there is no such wasteful experience and encounters with people in our lives.


Masami