Blurred mind...

Waking up in the middle of last night again, I am just wondering why I can't take any sound sleeps on my bed. My sleep does't last more than 4 hours, and I'm curious why I rather take a better sleep in the nap room at work during my night shifts. Very weird...

Anyway, my mornings normally start from around 4:30, and I have a plenty of time to enjoy the days of my "How many days, how many hours, how many minutes, and how many seconds of my "how long is gonna last of my life".

I was already at a Starbucks in Umeda central business district at 7:00 which is opening from 7:00 in the morning. I was the 2nd, or the 3rd guest for the day. I wanted to have a cup of strong coffee to wake me up, but I'm having a chamomile tea now instead since I have an appointment for a medical check-ups at 9:30. 

Looking at the people passing by, mostly guys and ladies wearing a business jacket in this district, I tried to have a virtual image of myself that I'm a kinda career guy with a jacket on waking through this business district with long strides. 

I know that this situation is definitely rare, and probably a "never" of things in this moment, and later in my life. However I feel that this may be existing at the same time in another dimensional of my life. 

Very blurred shadows reflecting on the ground. It looks like my mind now. 

Yawning a few time, I start now feeling a bit blue because I need to take a barium  in an hour for the stomach X-ray check-up.... 

I really need a strong coffee to wake me up now!!

Masami